I AM LOVED
Minsan it is hard to think that you have been loved.
Minsan parang hindi mo naman nararamdaman.
Minsan, hindi mo lang napapansin. Minsan you take them for granted.
Minsan nga it is silly to accept. KorniK.
But Minsan masarap din pala maramdaman (yong totoong pakiramdam ha) na minahal ka, na minamahal ka.Why am I saying this. See, sa buong buhay ko feeling ko mag isa lang ako. Feeling ko failure ako. Feeling ko walang success sa buhay ko that I am a loser. That I am nothing. I can't even find a job. I can't even think of something I'm good at. And these negative feelings will bring you to something called depression. At kapag hindi mo naagapan, this will kill you. Kakainin ka lang nito buong buo. And you know it's frightening. Ito rin ata ang state of mind that everything is miserable. That everything has no meaning at all. For sometime kala ko I am digging my graveyard and I wont be able to come out the situations. Sa dinami dami kong pinagdaanang problema, disappointments and hurts. I almost give up. I spent sleepless nights crying and asking God why is this happening to me. I spent loads of times blaming other people. I wasted so much energy by looking on to something that I don't have rather being happy for what I have. Nakaktakot pala yun.
But then I realized life is not finish yet. Life so beautiful to make loads of resentments. God has offered me not to dwell on the past and start a new in this bright future of mine. Pero hindi pala madali, It takes a mature heart to see things like this. Kailangan pala mag mature ka rin. Kailangan pala handa ka rin magbukas. Siguro that was lacking on me for the longest years. I think pag natanggap mo ang lahat sa buhay mo madaling maging masaya. You would begin to appreciate things around you, people around you, friends who are there forever when you need them. Hindi mo kailangan pala yung mga bagay na nuong una tingin mo yun ang makakapagpasaya sayo. There are more in less.
Thanks to all the people whom God uses to express His Loved. Sa tahimik at pag iisa mo talaga mararamdaman ang tunay na kapayapaan at pagmamahal. I am grateful to those people. They taught me so much things in life. Mga taong nag bigay sa akin ng sakit, mga taong nanjan pag kailangan mo sila, mga taong patuloy kang pinagdadasal at mga taong minahal ka unconditionally.
Ultimately, that love from God is really amazing. It will bring somewhere else. To where you wouldn't imagine and yet you still feel He is there. Maybe along the way you would seem feel He abandoned you but if you believe things will go different from what you expected.
To all the people who love me (us) unconditionally I pray for you all. To all the people who teach me to be tough. I am praying for you all and learned to forgive you.To God may all the Highest Glory be yours.
x
